A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere
2007 was a bad year, and it wasn’t even the one where I lost someone vital to my life.
It was the sense of foreboding, that instinctual recognition of a storm on the horizon, that plagued me that year. After so many terrible events, after so much struggle, I was broken down, tapped out, crumpled in a heap. And yet, I knew more would come. I needed to find salvation, to find strength. I had none left to give.
A pilgrimage became my raison d’etre, all of my remaining energy siphoned into its pursuit. I like to believe that the universe listens, that it cannot always give you everything you want, but when you are truly in need, it will provide. It sent a quiet angel who provided me with all I needed to make my journey possible.
The water is special to me, and California stole my heart in 2000 in a scant few days. I needed to return in 2007, and did so for my birthday, a day I hate for its winter weather and bad associations. During that time of limbo, that fervent hope and need, this song was a constant fixture, a mantra. To this day, it immediately evokes the first steps on the beach during that trip, a sunset walk along the water. I collected sand in a small bottle to take home as a souvenir and inhaled the salty air until I was revived.
“They say California is a recipe for a black hole
And I say, ‘I got my best shoes on. I’m ready to go’…“
Pictures Of Success – Rilo Kiley